in truth i wake up every morning and have a dialogue with myself about whether or not i should wear real pants each day.
yoga pants prevailed yet again.
i do not feel the hopeless, “why even try” when it comes to getting dressed. for the most part i keep doing my hair and my make up. but i genuinely love the stretch and i’ve been doing a lot of crisscross apple sauce while puzzling so why constrict myself in jeans?
we moved the furniture in our living room. we live in a tiny little apartment and really, this rearranging isn’t at all practical but it feels fresh and i like it. unfortunately for me i already cleaned out the closets before the quarantine started so i have nothing to marie kondo and i can have no satisfaction there. i needed to be a slob just a little longer…
i have been listening to the bible since i got out of bed this morning. i think i have a headache from the voice. am i allowed to say that? I am almost done with exodus and that has been a great reminder to me to not become complainy like the israelites. they too got trapped in the dessert wondering for a long time and sometimes i forget that i know the end of their story and i just roll my eyes when they think God won’t take care of them. oops conviction.
the state gave a stay at home order starting at midnight tonight and that means everything will officially be shut down. i worry a little bit about my favorite coffee shop. will they survive? alena and i did a curbside pick up today and as we drove away i yelled out the window that i hoped we’d see them again.
and that reminds me, i keep saying things that sound so dramatic in my own ears but then i realize they are actually true. there are chances that my favorite coffee will be no more or the world could look totally different in a few weeks. i feel like i’m constantly walking the balance of, don’t freak out because God is in control and TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY ABIGAIL.
i promise i am doing both.
i tried to do a handstand this morning.
it didn’t happen.
thats all for today. i have to figure out what to make for dinner. ps the sun is supposed to be out tomorrow and i am full of joy about it.