what a rollercoaster of emotions these days feel like for me.
i think today might have been the prettiest day of the year. i got out of bed and the sun was shining so bright in the sky, (see above photo for how it looked when i got out of bed. incredible.) it was beautiful and clear and i spent most of the morning longboarding/walking and listening the the bible. not going to lie, leviticus and numbers? not my favorite books but we got through it.
i basically spent the entire day outside. i’ve totally lost track of what day it is even though i know its not the weekend yet because caleb still leaves for work in the morning. it was a weird day today though because it felt like it lasted six days and i’m not actually complaining about that because it was beautiful, but i did run out of things to do at about 1:27. including longboarding, reading outside and walking outside.
that reminds me, this country is so fun because someone came up with the idea to put teddybears in windows so that when kids are on walks they can have a bear hunt. its actually thrilling stuff right now and i crushed in it twice today.
i somehow managed to not watch any tv again and when caleb finally got home from work we went out for a bike ride. my friend katie is letting me borrow her bike for a bit and it is literally making my life better already. it was so fun to ride with caleb.
this is where my rollercoaster headed downward today and i’ll be honest, i’m having a hard time getting it back up the track. we rode our bikes past a group of our friends hanging out and playing in the park. it made me miss everyone so bad and also feel jealous that i can’t hang out too. i cried and we had to stop riding bikes. i have a “high risk” they say for getting the virus and it being really bad. i’m a weak lunged individual and i hate to admit that any part of me is weak so the constant reminder these days to be extra carful has been a real hit to my spirit. i feel tight in my chest a lot of the time and so far i have only been around the same two people. i am sad to not get to be with people. i am sad that the people i can hang out with gets smaller and smaller.
i think thats a solemn way to end this today but it is supposed to reflect my thoughts and those are the ones i have tonight. that and i’m peeved at who got voted off survivor.
it will get better i think.